Almost 4 months ago Axel was born. I had no idea that this little person, my little baby boy, would bring me so much joy. My clock never started to tick and prior to falling in love with Jesper I never really gave having a child much thought. In the back of my head I hoped that I would someday, in the far-off future, want and have a baby with someone special. But I never longed for it. Then I met Jesper, a few years ago, and something started to happened. I started to dream of getting married (nope, I have not been planning my wedding since I was a little girl) and I started to hope that we would have a beautiful baby together someday.
When Axel arrived on January 30th, 2011 I was swooped off my feet literally and figuratively. Nothing could have prepared me for the feelings that have been growing inside me since the first time our eyes locked. He is the most incredible little being. His smile lights my heart on fire and when he giggles I melt. I don't even hear how ridiculous I must sound (and look) when I do the same goofy noise over and over again just to hear his wonderful, contagious, laughter. He has such beautiful eyes that are filled with curiosity, love and joy. When he sleeps I sneak into his room to look at how peaceful he is and to admire him. I love holding him tight and putting my head close, close, close to his so I can feel his warmth. It's wonderful to know that when I hold him he feels completely safe.
Having a son has been the most amazing thing. I'm proud to be his mom and I feel blessed to bring him up. How lucky am I? I am excited to see the world through his eyes. He inspires me beyond words (more about that an other day).
Anyway, Sunday is Mothers Day in Sweden. My first Mothers Day. It feels very special. I look forward to spending the day with my two guys, going to brunch and having a lovely day. I will give him a 1000 kisses just like every other day. So to all you mothers out there, not just in Sweden, have a wonderful Sunday. Happy weekend! xx - Joanna
photos: Axel, 13 weeks taken by me, Joanna Swanson, his mama.